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Love Age by Mamiya Rin

Me and one of my friend in Pangandaran

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Hi, people!

Been so long since the last time I was here. But in the meantime, I've already made up my mind, and I guess... I'm better than before. I mean, in everything ;-)

So stupid of me that I've just realized that I have the best friends & family everrr! Even though some of them are much much older than me, but they can count me as their friend. I am so happy.

And ah, btw, last Tuesday I went to Pangandaran Beach with my classmates. Sadly, there were only 5 girls who came and the rest were boys. But, I was utterly happy! That was one of my best holiday ever!

We rented 2 cars to go there. And luckily, I was in the same car with my crush (actually, one of my reason why I wanted to go there is because my crush took part on it LOL :p) we spent almost 6 hours to go there, but it didn't bother me at all. It's strange, but I was really really really happy that I didn't even give a shit about how stiff my feet were. Ah, perhaps because my crush was there. Hahahahah joking!

As we arrived at Pangandaran Beach in the morning, we went straight to the wash room to change our clothes. After that, we rocked the beach!!! In the beginning, I had no intention on getting drenched but I ended up wet from head to toe...LOL.

After we cleaned ourselves in the bathroom, my female friends and I rented a three-seated-bicycle and an ATV. We had so much fun! And also, we girls went shopping... (of course :p)

In the afternoon, we left Pangandaran and took about 4 hours journey to go to my friend's cottage in Ciamis. We arrived there at around 4.30 pm. We went straight to the bathroom (again) to clean ourselves, because it was so damn hot there! We played some games and grilled some fishes until late night and after that the ladies went into the bedroom. And for the boys, they were still playing and gossiping (boys do gossip too! :p)

At 1 am, I woke up. Not because I've slept enough, but because I had a......flu. Damn. So I went to the living room, where the boys were all sleeping, and took a glass of water. And I saw my crush's bed-face ;-) OMG he's so cute, moreover when he's sleeping...LOL!

In the morning, we were queuing for the bathroom...again! Hahahahah. Actually, that was the best part of the journey (perhaps) because we were sooo into each other! Hahahahah. And in the afternoon, we decided to go home. We packed our stuffs and cleaned the house together.

As we arrived in Bandung, we waited for parents who were about to pick their teenagers (:p) in our friend's house, where we always gather together. Ah well, no one came to pick me... And luckily there was a friend of mine that would go take me home with his motorcycle. Thankyouuuuuu. And because there was a big rain outdoor, we just waited there watching a horror movie in my friend's room (with my crush too hohohohoho :p)

When the rain stopped, we decided to go home. He was so nice. Thanks again for taking me home!

Okay, actually, there are a lot of things happened but of course I can't tell them all here! Hahahahah.

In short, I am very happy. I had so much fun there. I love my friends (and my crush,hahahah)! That was one of my best journey ever!!!!!!!!!!

Decisions

Bonjour!

I've made some decisions about my life lately.

1. I decided to let things flow.
2. I decided to be a better me.
3. I decided to be nice to everyone.
4. I decided to stop complaining about everything.
5. I decided to not to let him know about my feeling.
6. I decided to........ be a secret admirer.

Hahahahaha. Yeah. Those are my decisions.

Talk about the #5 decision... that is my conclusion I took after thinking about everything. I mean... this is the best way for both of us. And for everyone. We can still be friends. I can try to forget him. I can try to let him go. We can go back to the time where I and him still be friends. I can do that. I can do that.

This is the best way for both of us.

Happiness

Aloha!

Since tomorrow is the last day of my exams week, I'd be soooo happy! I'm gonna be so free like a bitch. And it also means... holiday! Yay! Hip hip... hooray!

I'm so tired of these school thingy... borrrring. And I'm gonna be a 2nd year high school student hooray...

Aha, talk about my life recently, I guess everything went well. Days passed so smoothly & peacefully. Perfect! Indeed, I love my life.

And that is also because of him... actually. Still remember? The 'he' that I've told you in my last post? Yep, that 'he'. He's like... my personal motivator that makes me want to go to school, study, and even to beautify myself.

Ah since I wasn't the type of girl who's concerned much about her style, I become much much more concern about it. Anyway, thank him for that ;)

Okay, so... wish me luck for my exams tomorrow! And I'm afraid that I'll go mad if I'm staying here talking about him, him, and him... LOL.

XOXO

A (Complicated) Story About Us (Part II)

Me again here, still, with the same problem. With the guy I've told you before...

I still don't know what to do, but I guess I've got a thing. Everyday, every time I see him, I'm in love with him all over again... even much bigger than before. OMG. And the thing is that, every single thing, even just a little thing he does, distracted me. Oh God, what is it with me :|

For example, when he's on Y!m, I feel so happy even if he doesn't IM me. I just love it when we're doing something mutual. Or else, when he liked my status on Facebook, I felt like getting a mini heart-attack. I'm not exaggerating it, you know.. I really did. I got a mini heart-attack when I his name popped on my Facebook Notification. Aaaa, this is killing me slowly.

I don't know what to do with this feeling. My heart tells me that I love him so much, for sure. But my mind tells me that I shouldn't love him. Because there are so many consequences if I do. For example, our friendship will be broken if he knows that I love him this much... as a man (not only as a bestfriend).

God, I really really don't know what to do. This feeling is torturing me yet makes me happy. Oh My God...

Me with glasses.. what do you think? Yay or Nay?

SmartphOWNED.com

Hahahahaha. This is so funny. My mood booster of the week.

Quote of The Week

"Don't ever try to forget, even when you don't want to remember. Because the more you try to forget, the more you miss that person."

"Don't deny yourself of the things you want, because what is denied becomes strongly desired."

My bestfriends: Winda Jumara (the orange one) and Wida Syaadah (the white-shirted one) with me (the green stripes one) in my house.

A (Complicated) Story About Us

Umm how should I begin this story... Okay. It's all started on July, 2010. That was my first time entering high school. I met new friends, and also... him. Let's call him X. He smiled at me. A very charming smile. By that time, I could never take my eyes off of him. Since that time, we became close. We're not a bestfriend, but I can tell that he is one of my important friend. He's very nice, smart, loyal and I loved him. The problem is that... he had a girlfriend. She's not in the same school as us, but they were very romantic. Everybody can tell that they loved each other. And so... I gave up. I tried to forget him. And yes, I did.

2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8 months passed... nothing special happened. But I don't know when did I start paying attention to him again. He... He's like... he's distracting me. OMG I really don't know why I had that feeling. He had a girlfriend. They loved each other. I loved him. It hurts.

Surprisingly, I don't know the exact time... but there was a rumor said that they are breaking up. You know, I'm not gonna be a hypocrite so yes, I was totally in heaven. I was very happy. It's like... 'Yay! This is my chance!'. And that wasn't only a rumor. That was the fact. They were officially breaking up. Okay.

By that time I realize... It's not right. This is not right. My feeling towards him, it's not right. I don't know why, really! So then I decided to forget him. We're friends. And in my life, friends can't be lovers. Friends are friends. Lovers are lovers. That's it.

I began with cutting my hair. Because I believe, cutting a long hair into a short one means to leave the past, and move on (I love my new hair anyway). And I tried to look at him as just as a friend, without any ulterior motive. I tried so hard. And I guessed I did that well...

But I was wrong. Again, that feeling came. I still don't know what to do... up until now. I don't want to ruin our relationship. He's a very very very good friend of mine... I don't want to lose him, just because this feeling. I can't be in love with him. That is my conclusion. But still, I don't know...

Welcome!

Hi, everyone. Call me Fay. I'm still 15 years old, going on my first grade in high school. I love to express myself, that's why I made this blog. Thank you so much for reading this welcome message, enjoy!