Decisions

Bonjour!

I've made some decisions about my life lately.

1. I decided to let things flow.
2. I decided to be a better me.
3. I decided to be nice to everyone.
4. I decided to stop complaining about everything.
5. I decided to not to let him know about my feeling.
6. I decided to........ be a secret admirer.

Hahahahaha. Yeah. Those are my decisions.

Talk about the #5 decision... that is my conclusion I took after thinking about everything. I mean... this is the best way for both of us. And for everyone. We can still be friends. I can try to forget him. I can try to let him go. We can go back to the time where I and him still be friends. I can do that. I can do that.

This is the best way for both of us.

Happiness

Aloha!

Since tomorrow is the last day of my exams week, I'd be soooo happy! I'm gonna be so free like a bitch. And it also means... holiday! Yay! Hip hip... hooray!

I'm so tired of these school thingy... borrrring. And I'm gonna be a 2nd year high school student hooray...

Aha, talk about my life recently, I guess everything went well. Days passed so smoothly & peacefully. Perfect! Indeed, I love my life.

And that is also because of him... actually. Still remember? The 'he' that I've told you in my last post? Yep, that 'he'. He's like... my personal motivator that makes me want to go to school, study, and even to beautify myself.

Ah since I wasn't the type of girl who's concerned much about her style, I become much much more concern about it. Anyway, thank him for that ;)

Okay, so... wish me luck for my exams tomorrow! And I'm afraid that I'll go mad if I'm staying here talking about him, him, and him... LOL.

XOXO

A (Complicated) Story About Us (Part II)

Me again here, still, with the same problem. With the guy I've told you before...

I still don't know what to do, but I guess I've got a thing. Everyday, every time I see him, I'm in love with him all over again... even much bigger than before. OMG. And the thing is that, every single thing, even just a little thing he does, distracted me. Oh God, what is it with me :|

For example, when he's on Y!m, I feel so happy even if he doesn't IM me. I just love it when we're doing something mutual. Or else, when he liked my status on Facebook, I felt like getting a mini heart-attack. I'm not exaggerating it, you know.. I really did. I got a mini heart-attack when I his name popped on my Facebook Notification. Aaaa, this is killing me slowly.

I don't know what to do with this feeling. My heart tells me that I love him so much, for sure. But my mind tells me that I shouldn't love him. Because there are so many consequences if I do. For example, our friendship will be broken if he knows that I love him this much... as a man (not only as a bestfriend).

God, I really really don't know what to do. This feeling is torturing me yet makes me happy. Oh My God...

Me with glasses.. what do you think? Yay or Nay?